It is true the internet makes the world a smaller place. People I would of never met or interacted with, suddenly are acquaintances and friends. But with that sometimes come the feelings of inadequacy. The question of “what the heck am I doing?”
And I answer: “I don’t know.”
I take pictures. But does that make me a photographer? I don’t believe so.
Is it a job? No – I can’t say it is.
Do I want it to be? Not sure.
The internet makes me jealous at times. Envious of things I don’t really need or need to accomplish.
Isn’t that awful? I think so. So at those moments I need to put myself in check. Kick myself into gear.
I want to remember to take pictures for the sheer joy of doing so. And I find myself forcing that lately. And there is nothing to be proud of when you “force” something. When you make yourself do something with no feeling just to do it.
So I thought a break would be the best thing for me right now. Complete unplugging. Nothing until maybe summer. Which I am almost certain will be hard. But I feel, very necessary.
No -I am not sad (well sometimes I am). There is nothing going on. Everything is OK. It’s just I am coming to a crossroad soon. My littlest will be going to Kindergarten in the Fall and things I thought would be in place by then either went away or never transpired. So, I am trying to figure out what is next for me. Where I am going. And for the first time, I have no idea how to get there. Which to be honest, is very unsettling for someone like me.
But I thought you should know, rather than disappear. OK?
So, I am not going to end on that note, but rather some current inspiration.
Really excited for these girls and their book.
Wishing I was in Austin a month earlier.
Longing for summer.
This project is just amazing.
A reminder Spring is on it’s way.
A new-to-me blog.